fear.
not so much fear of dying (I don't feel death at all now, tried to take my life so many times), more so the fear of not being able to do the things I take for granted.. like breaving, and laughing, and being creative, and being able to talk on these forums..

also my love for music

I can't imagine any day without music, and singing

and their's always new songs to discover

and it's a bold statement (and probably not possible, no, certainly not possible), but I want to be around to hear everything, every song ever recorded

and their's loads of old recordings I've never heard