No worries -- these are really important statements and realizations for you on your own path of healing and recovery. You've made amazing progress -- and that is what this thread is about anyways -- saying goodbye to toxicity and toxic relationships.

You've pinpointed that he is not stable and has a personality disorder that makes him the way he is -- similar to my ex being mentally unhealthy (but also generally a low life to begin with). I came to the same realization about him as well and realized that it's not me, it's him. I was taking things far too personally -- thinking what did I do to deserve this kind of treatment??? I was nothing but good to him, too good in fact.

But alas, my ex is severely disturbed, and now I know that there was nothing I could have done & I am wiping my hands clean of the whole thing.