I'm part of an NGO that rescues snakes in India [I'm still training], and they have recently added me to their Whatsapp group. I originally joined because I really like snakes and I hate it when people kill them just because of some fear that society has instilled. I'm also terrified of them, as in I freeze up and my mind goes blank, or rather used to, when I see them, but would never harm them. Unfortunately, this also happens to me when I am under stress in other day to day conditions as well[I don't freeze up always, but my mind does go sort of blank and I usually cant really think much like when riding a bike or car and have to make a quick decision or in an exam to name a few]. I thought that I could better "prepare" myself for these situations if I could handle snakes calmly without panicking. They're a great group of people,helpful and everything; they consider everyone in the group family, and I'm truly thankful for knowing them, but I think I'm a little intimidated by their intelligence, or sad that I don't really have the closeness that the other 122 members do, since some members have been with the NGO since 2007. Maybe it's because everyone else does rescues and that for me represents accomplishment. Or maybe I just feel insecure... I don't really know. Sometimes, rather most times when I open the group chat, I can't help feeling this way. Why can't I fit in anywhere?