I understand the blind rage - that's me too. So i hold back to control it. I don't like being that way and i feel no one deserves it. My t is trying to get me to "stop containing"... but I feel she has no idea what she's asking.

That does sound like a lot of work. I'm sorry! I went and got a PTSD work book - you might find something like that more feasable too - you can do pieces of it when you are ready.

Good luck with all that.
Kiya