I just feel like I don’t matter to anyone. I feel like I’m just garbage. I feel messed up.

I had an exam today but I didn’t really study for because I just didn’t care. I have been lacking motivation to do things, and so I haven’t done much school work. Better than before. I wasn’t stressed about not passing. I didn’t care how I did. I just want to be done. I feel like I need a break from life.

I feel not good enough for anyone or anything. I pay money for school and don’t care. There’s only a week left, and one exam for me, and I’m done until summer school. And I’m upset that I don’t care.

This is literally all over the map. I just feel like I have so many physical and mental problems that I’m just messed up. And I feel like I don’t have a right to complain because they aren’t “that bad”. I’m not dying. I am not suicidal. I just hate how I am right now.