My Support Forums - View Single Post - Dear T: I Really Need to Tell You Something, but I Don't Know How...Part XXXI

LabRat27 · Apr 21, 2018, 12:25 AM

Self harm TW

Possible trigger:

I respect your decision to say no when I asked if I could show you my scars, and I understand and agree with the reasoning. If I hadn't been willing to accept "no" as an answer I would have just worn a sleeveless shirt instead of asking. To be honest, given my feelings and motivations for asking, you probably made the right call.

That being said, I told you I hadn't self harmed since I last saw you and you were pleased, and now I want to self harm to punish you/as a tantrum because you said no.

If I complete a thought record on this and share it with you we're probably going to have to have that conversation about transference I've been avoiding.
Did you know what you were in for when you agreed to see me? Would that conversation be enough to make you go running for the hills?
This is probably something I should talk to you about sooner rather than later. As much as I'd love to put it off, if your reaction is negative, the longer I've been seeing you, the more it will hurt.