Hi. With all due respect, if you don't mind me saying so, I don't think that's something to dislike about yourself. I've become the same way over the years and I'm okay with it. Perhaps it's something you can learn to accept about yourself because in a lot of ways, to me, it's a healthy self respecting way to be. Good on you, you have my full support. People think they can ride roughshod over others but they can't - not over everybody.