Nike007,

I am so sorry you are feeling this way--I know it is hard.

Let me just say a few things...first, something, important I learned as I was journeying out of feeling like you are--is that 'feelings lie.'

They do. And yours are lying to you--because you do matter and you are not garbage. As for messed up--who isn't. It's not the fact that we are messed up--it's about working to become whole. I started that journey with a therapist, years ago--and he helped me see all this. I couldn't see what I didn't know, and I'd learned all kinds of unhealthy thoughts and behaviors.

Sounds like you are burned out at school right now. I understand that. With one week left, just do the best you can and then dedicate the summer to becoming healthier.

Oh, and you DO have a right to complain--you pain is real, and your 10 in pain is your 10 in pain, mine might be different, but that doesn't negate yours. Don't compare yourself to others--we are each unique within ourselves.

Sounds like you beat yourself up a lot. That would be something to work on after this term of school. Learning to stop the inner abusive dialogue will change your world.

Know you are worthy of health and well being. Know you are entitled to your feelings. I wish you love and light.