I talked with the kids' dad last night. It was actually a good talk. He's learning new things and taking good steps. I listened and I validated and affirmed, and I set aside my own sh#@ in order do that. Healing and stability are happening, and in that I am seeing the fruit of my choice to stay.

But...I know you said in response to my question that you believe that someday I will get a chance to speak to my pain and have it heard. I just let that go, because I didn't believe it then and I still don't believe it. How is someone who has erased the memories of his own actions, who has cast himself as a victim of the choices I made to protect myself, EVER going to hear how I've been harmed? I don't believe the time will eventually come or whatever you said.

F#$%

I'm glad I'm seeing you this week.