yes im at home now, sorry you guys had to read all those... i shouldnt have wrote all them. what can i say, except something came over me.... i just get in my car, and i feel like im stuck in my car with this incredible energy, makes it so hard to drive! cuz i want to move around, do things and i cant. but there is so much i have to do today! and i forgot to eat again.... oops. maybe i should take something for this, but i think that i have so much to do, that if i take a pill and be calm that i wont be able to get it all don. then i will feel like a failure. but that will be nothing new to me. cuz i feel like that a lot. i guess it is because my mind races faster than i can keep up with it.