Completely understood, Vernon. I think by getting into more relationships without healing...the cycle I've been going through...the more I've tried to hide this desperation without trying to work this type of feeling out with my T. I feel very lonely very often, but I can't even enjoy my own company. And I think this is where I need to take some time out, let this cycle die out, and figure out how I can appreciate myself a bit more.

I definitely understand how it feels to really like someone and then not have the feeling(s) returned. Not pleasant... That's when my desperation tends to peep out...and then flood out...and then a whole like of yikes/unpleasantness just rushes in...