Hi, I've long suffered from a jealousy side but not resulting in rage or anger but more worthlessness. I tend to get jealous of other women more than anyone. I'm not sure why but I do know I had issues with my mom growing up.

When I was younger.... I would get jealous of girls who had boyfriends or girls who were popular, girls who did well in school and girls who got to go on fun trips etc. I always felt like the best loser female ever

Then as an adult, it got somewhat better because I started to distance myself from people. Then I had a few crushes and got the typical jealousy of others talking to them and when they laugh or whatever, it was the worst. I go very jealous of a female friend a few years back who got to meet a singer I really liked. I still get jealous of women who have boyfriends, even though a relationship isn't something I want.

Now in therapy, I've unfortunately allowed myself to become very attached and am jealous of the people he works with, both men and women... because they get to be with him every day, and of the friends he has and gets to hang with and now, I've become jealous of a female client that has something in common with me that I found out about. I told him how I felt, he was kind and very nice with his reply but I still am having a desire to feel special. I don't want to be like all the other clients... and I'm feeling terrible about myself. He's gonna replace me or forget me or abandon me. He knows all those issues but ugh, it's not going away.

The anxiety sometimes takes its toll on my mind and I can't stop obsessing and becoming more jealous and more worthless feeling. I am sick of this life long issue, and no idea how to end it, any advice? Please?