Spring time is the worse for me on so many levels. It brings back horrible childhood memories one of them of being taken away from my Mother in a courtroom custody battle.
This year it became compounded. I suffered an attack of PTSD from a hate crime I was victim of back in DEC 2017 that involved tons of racial slurs all screamed at the top of the womans lungs ( she was latino) accompanied by kicking, punching at my door.
And I mean she was screaming. All this because with an open palm I tapped on the wall due to all the screaming, and what sounded like a fight with what seemed like bodies being slammed around.
I heard all this through the thin walls of my bathroom wall . Prior to that I was fine. I was watching a video of puppies on YouTube then I had to go to the bathroom.
The whole ordeal was quite ugly, because the woman went back into the apartment next door & continued banging only more loud. I did the same.
I have noticed a sever rise in hate among African Americans.
It is cause for concern. And do you want to know the funny part? This odious woman didn't even reside next door what she was doing there was anyones guess (although I have an idea drugs might have been at the core)
I don't really like being called racial slurs I don't care if I was trying to get them to quiet down.
So, in the future I will draw up an emergency plan much like a plan in case of fire that I will type up then tape on the door.
I will also keep near the door a tape recorder at the ready.
I will have a point by point plan.
I have to say that black women get so much of the hate it just isn't the LGBT or transgenders.
The gangmembers scare me the most because they want to kill & I'm not making this up. Go online & research it.
As a result of all that trauma drama I moved out a few weeks later, my landlord allowed me to break my lease.
I have to be so careful where I go. It's dangerous for a black woman I have to worry about police & another group who hates the color of my skin so intensely that they might do harm. It's pretty scary when a group of people are so full of hate like that!
The fear is real and these guys are sprouting up all over like franchises.
As a result of all the trauma drama I 've had to move.
It's extremely scary that a group of people are so full of hate that I'm being intimidated, and bodily harm or worse may come to me.
But I won't let that rule my life.