Welcome to PC. Sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time.

How long is it before you see your T? Can you contact them and tell them that you are unwell and get some suggestions from them. I don't know if you would be better off in hospital. Have you been in hospital before when you have been like this and if you were in hospital was it beneficial or not? Some hospitals can help others can be horribly triggering in themselves.

Can you identify why you are being triggered more? Is there anyway that you can make it so there is less pressure on you. Have you learned any grounding techniques to make you safer?

Please contact a professional soon.