Jealousy for me is often unfounded. I have a vivid imagination and create scenarios in my head that aren't even true. I am basically insecure. I am learning to control my emotions by talking about what I'm thinking and asking myself if that could really be true or am I just feeling less than, that old black hole in me that is never quite full. Yes, I had a bad daddy. Is that why I'm insecure and jealous? Maybe. But I'm an adult now, however childhood stuff has never gone away for me. When I get jealous it is all consuming. I try and talk it out with my partner. I wish I was more help. It's a terrible feeling.
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