I love gardening but it can have negative as well as positive aspects. When I am very low my motivation and energy drops and seeing plants dying or weeds taking over because of my neglect makes me worse. I feel despairing then. As well as being outside the positive from gardening for me is it ties me to life in that I can say to myself 'I don't want to kill myself till I've seen that plant in flower', it gives me things to look forwards too - but it also takes more from me than it gives sometimes.