Apologies for posting another topic in this forum but I wanted to know what you guys thought of this.

My girlfriend used to have an abusive father. He used to beat her and I always tried to get her to turn him in because I feared for her, but she used to be on good terms with her dad, until she turned 10 and her mum died then her dad turned to drugs and became abusive. She always told herself and me that one day her dad would change so I didn't push it.

But when we turned 17 things got worse. I won't get into the entire story, but her father drugged her and was planning on raping her when I came by and begged him not to, but I was physically weak at the time because of multiple broken bones so I couldn't fight him... I told him I wasn't going to let him rape her, so he said it was me or her.

So it was me, so I let him rape me so she wouldn't be hurt... and it wasn't a one off thing, it happened for a while, every time he'd threaten her so I'd take the fall. I was scared if I called someone he'd hurt her.

To conclude the story, later in the year, I won't get into details, but I shot him in the kneecap and blinded him and my girlfriend left her dad forever. We have no idea what happened to him.

My gf later found out I had been raped by her dad, but she doesn't know how long... or why. I never discuss it with her and she knows not to press me for answers. But I hate not being able to talk about it because it weighs heavily on my mind.

So should I tell her why I was raped, because the reason was so she wouldn't be and so I could protect her from her dad? Because I feel like if I tell her she'll feel guilty, I know if it was the other way around I would feel guilty. I'm also scared she'll change her opinion of me because in a way the rapes were voluntary (not that I wanted them).

So do you guys think it's a good thing to tell her, even if it makes her feel guilty, or it's just the past and not worth bringing up?