So some things have happened recently and I thought I'd answered a few questions I had about myself, but I think it just raised even more questions.

As some background info...

I'm transgender (androgyne/transmasculine), I just recently had my long term and long distance relationship turn sexual, I suffer from depression, ADHD and I'm mostly medicated (meds + orgasm = impossible).

Here's the thing... I'm really into my partner. However I'd rather please them than have them please me, I'm not really into being on the receiving end of any sexual acts. I could, and can, spend hours pleasing them, though. We're both into kink, particularly BDSM, and I consider myself a switch. But I enjoy kink as kink, not necessarily as a sexual act in itself. If that makes sense?

I feel like I'm somehow broken because I have no trouble with kink or giving sexual pleasure, I just don't want to be on the receiving end when it comes to sex because I get practically nothing from it. I don't know if I'm asexual/grey ace or if it's because I'm trans or because of my depression/meds.

Is this a normal asexual thing? I feel like I can't use the term asexual for myself because I have no trouble with giving and kink, just... Yeah. It honestly just feels like a massive part of me is irreparable.