hi puckyjan
sorry you're having one of those days... sitting down with you here and listening...
i have had several feelings about loved ones... i think if we're in tune closely about our own feelings, or, rather those feelings have 'taken control' so to speak, deep fears and worries present themselves in what could seem uncanny ways at times..
mostly, i get the impression that you are full of emotion right now and all senses are tiding...
let the tears do some cleansing... are these tears that wont stop and seem without reason? there is always a reason imo, and it takes time to get to the root of it....
you can feel safe here to be yourself and get out how you feel... we have all felt pain or we wouldnt be here, so you're in understanding company...