There have been those dark days for me, as well. Those struggles for
control that seem futile and endless. I don't listen to people anymore
who have never experienced this life. I don't care how many degrees
they have--if they have never known the violence, the pain, humiliation,
self loathing and self doubt...they will never be more than an outsider
looking in. NO ONE has the right to judge you, my dears.
You should have seen their faces when I told them my worst alter made
me drink fingernail polish remover. I spit it out. Did one of those instant
shifts back to core that saved my life. She's been doing things like that
my whole life. She was the one who took me for two years.
I am finally in a place of relative peace, but work hard to keep it all in
balance. Meds, sleep, nutrition, no alcohol or street drugs and being mindful. (The old DBT tapes.)
I pray you will find your way, my fellow passengers and that you will
not suffer any longer.
Love, Flower