Freewill -
You are absolutely not unlovable! You need to just let that notion go because it is not true. You are lovable and kind and compassionate and smart and funny. Even after all that you have going on in your life you still always take the time to respond and to be supportive and helpful and loving to everyone here. Please know that you are lovable - please also love yourself and let yourself see all the good things that you do.

Gentle hugs to you!