TW: for talk of cutting and suicide.




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The problem is, distracting myself only works for so long. So I spend most my mornings trying to convince myself to get out of bed, and then convince myself to actually leave my house. And the thing is I can be semi, kinda ok while out of the house. It does distract me. Then I come home and I am slowly reminded of all the things that suck about my life. Everybody goes to bed I try to distract by cleaning, eating, watching tv,but it’s stupid really, because in the long run I just end up cutting anyways, and daydreaming about killing myself. It’s all pointless.