So sorry you are in the midst of this. I am too, just a few steps ahead. And you are not the only soul who has dreamt of serious cuddle sessions with their T (I sure have).

I am glad you found that article. I have read hundreds and it is only one of two that explained things so well that I could not only understand but embrace and have some self compassion about.

Many of us are telling our horror stories, but please do not allow that to dishearten you. There are many great therapists who can handle these feelings with kindness and understanding.

My T has really not handled it great. She hurt my feelings deeply. I believe I have hurt her in return, but neither of us is addressing the rupture. I have given it a few sessions to see what she might say. Nothing. I have even given her little clues, like I am not doing well, considering terminating therapy, etc. And still, nothing.

You are strong and courageous. I know you can tap into that and the right words will come out in session. Even though mine has been rocky, I do feel proud for being so brave and vulnerable. My T's horrendous reaction is not my fault or my responsibility.