Because of T's upcoming move AND the incident outside her home, I feel like I've gone back yrs with her.
I'm struggling between session and all I can think of is her.
The wkend I felt I needed to be with her 24/7. Felt I needed to just follow her around.
We talked about this today.
I asked why. T said because your attachment issues begin at a very early age, that's where you go back to when something happens that knocks you back.
She asked if I could visualise feeling safe again there. I said no. But that's because I'm a glass half empty kind of person.
But of course I know intellectually I'm safe, I Just feel everything's changed.
I asked T if she's changed. She said no.
She said I think once we get you through this, it will be beneficial. That you've gone back to this early wound, gives us an opportunity to work with it in such a raw way.
I then said about how of course I'm curious about who she is, and with all Thsts gone on of late I've learnt more and to be honest, I don't really want to know.
T smiled, she said if you don't know much, you're able to use create me /here as you like.
I replied, yeah, I think that's it.
Then I asked if the incident thats happened keeps her awake at night. She thought for a while then said, no, no I don't think so. But then again I have trouble sleeping and as she that she added, there, that's something else you've learnt about me lol.