I'm sorry you are going through such a hard time right now. Sounds like you are beating yourself up about making those mistakes over and over.

Hey, quit that! All of us have done that at one time or another... And the fact that you are 'aware' of what you are doing is HUGE!!! Give yourself a pat on the back for that--and try to stop the negative self-talk in your head; it doesn't help.

You said, being around other folks "makes it worse for them too, cause they have to put up with me." Don't assume you make it worse for them--you don't know, not really, because we can't see other folks thoughts.

Being an introvert just means you gather your energy from being alone and that's fine. I'm an introvert also--but many think I'm extroverted because I enjoy people so much (If I've had my alone time). Without time to myself, my battery is depleted.

So take some time and gather your energy--but don't isolate yourself. Each of us has something unique to offer. And yes, work on being a 'people pleaser,' but give yourself some slack--we are all at varius stages of learning in the school called life.

Wishing you some peace...and hope.