Lots of good work here. The early wounds are hard to reach sometimes, keep it up.
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Originally Posted by Mouse_62
T smiled, she said if you don't know much, you're about to use /create me /here as you like.
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This is so true for me. I am able to use and create T to be what I want her to be for me.
Just a couple of weeks ago I wrote in my journal:
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On walk to train this morning I thought:
mommy loves me. how do I know? because mommy is fictional and lives inside me so I get to tell mommy how she feels.
This felt good until it continued with:
I can make believe you are mommy but you are not mommy.
Then:
I want you to be mommy.
Like with grandson though, if you were mommy, you wouldn't be what I wanted you to feel, you'd be what you felt. In make believe you feel what I want you to feel because it is my make believe.
You say a part of me can always see a part of you as mommy, that means I can always make believe you are mommy when I want to. In make believe in my head, I can have you do whatever I want you to do. In make believe in real, you get to say no when you need to. I don't like that. I am 6.
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