I am sorry it is such a struggle.
I do understand, at least to some degree.
It's a beautiful sunny day here. I have the windows and doors open, etc., but still struggling with staying active. I want to check-out by watching a movie or something. Yet, I have things I must get done. I am super anxious today. I am forcing myself to go to a concert tonight. I have to because I have invited others to go, too! Today, I wish I had not done so.
Please take care and keep posting if it helps!

WC