I feel like I need to be more positive and stop complaining.


At work, I had another incident where a person was talking to me about things she basically thought I should be doing. I kindly redirected her to the person in charge of what I am supposed to do (who told me to do what I am doing). But it brings up those emotions and they smother me and it is impossible to be positive or to just not care. I do think that I handled it a little better, but I told someone about this and I wish I had just not worried about it. I need to remind myself, no matter how much it doesn't matter, to not react to things that bother me, maybe give it 24 hours.

You know how I told you that I feel powerless? I feel powerless because anybody at anytime can send me into that bad place, where my negative emotions drown me. And I am left to deal with them.

I am ready for Summer break.