I guess I'm deep down looking for attention or praise. Maybe it would fill part of the hole inside of me. Sometimes I just want reassurance, but it's mostly just attention.

I do have a decent number of interests that could be done in groups, but I don't care for things that don't put me at the center of attention. I always wondered why I didn't care for activities that everyone else with my interests enjoy...I actually find some of them triggering depression episodes. So I can't be around people with much in common with me because of jealousy.