I empathize with you, whisperingskye, and e-hug you.

A person can die. Please do not underestimate, overlook, ignore, downplay or anything similarly the aforesaid truth and option. Additionally, a person may be alive, but how the person is being is as if s/he were dead and just dragging oneself through life.

Life in general is a struggle. Are you of the perspective that it is not possible to change your life to how you think you should be, how it should be, how you want it to be and so on? Also, would you be so kind as to explain why you type that "...drinking to excess" as "the 'safest' option?"