So true. I've been in control of the others for a little while--become
a clock watcher to make sure there are no 'accidents'. But I only have 16 months of normal after 55 years of chaos.
And the thing is, there is still a lot of division even within the single core.
It worries me, though it is totally normal. Those who are not multiples
display a lot of different personality traits; different moods and frames of mind that swing in a wide arc.
It just doesn't scare them. Scares the hell out of me.
I have to put everything under the microscope, examine every action and reaction to make sure it's not an alter trying to sneak out.
Does anyone else find this exhausting?
I am so impatient. Been out of the hospital five weeks now and it seems like it's taking forever to recover. Frustrating. Slept most of the day today. Just tired or lazy or depressed?
Coming here and meeting some of the other DIDs has helped a lot--
just wish I had their courage.