I've been dealing with a lot lately, and I just don't know how to deal with it all. Within a month and a half I was diagnosed with diabetes, pancreatitis, and an enlarged liver. I've had a bunch of tests done; an ultrasound, a CT scan, a colonoscopy, and an endoscopy. They found nothing from any of these tests. The doctor told me that the pancreatitis was likely caused by stress, and the enlarged liver is because I'm overweight. He even took biopsies during the last 2 tests, and they all came back normal.
I feel depression creeping back on me. Well, not so much creeping as pouncing on me. Besides all the health stuff, work has been stressful. I feel some animosity because of all the time I've taken off for appointments and because I was sick. I generally just feel unhappy with my job now, though it's been suggested that I might just be worn our after everything else that's happened lately. But I don't feel happy with my work, I feel like I'm always fighting to keep on top of things. Even worse, I feel no satisfaction or enjoyment in my job. But I don't know what to do about that yet, or even how to decide what to do.
I just don't know how to cope with all of this. You'd think after so many years of depression I'd have some way of coping, but I don't know what to do. Nothing interests me, nothing is fun. All I want to do I'd stay home and sleep. I'm out of ideas. Help?
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