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Old Apr 24, 2018, 11:55 AM
sorrow88 sorrow88 is offline
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Hello everyone, hope you're all having a pleasant day.

For a while now, i've been fearing losing my mind and feeling like i'm slowly and obviously, that's been causing me a lot of distress. so i figured i'd ask you guys about this to see if you have any useful advice for me.

So, i'm scared of that i'll develop an illness like schizophrenia or lose touch with reality, and at this point, i'm not sure if i'm exaggerating very minimal things/have irrational fears or if i just don't want to admit that i'm about to "lose it" and can't do anything about it.

I've googled the symptoms of things like schizophrenia and started getting really scared of that i might be about to develop something like that. for example, i ramble a bit and i used to ramble much more, i'm scared of that i might be delusional and i sometimes worry that i'm seeing or hearing things, i'm scared of having certain thoughts because they make me feel as if i'm going insane, i also used to enjoy philosophy because i found it interesting, but after discovering that "Over-philosophizing" is apparently a symptom of schizophrenia i've become too horrified to think "deeply" about anything, even though i'm merely interested in philosophy and don't use it to avoid reality or change it into something that i'd find more "Pleasing" and so on. i also worry that i may not be acting "Normal" even though no one ever tells me i'm doing anything weird.

And the thing is, even though everything i'm experiencing is apparently a symptom of anxiety or something like that and millions of people have had this happen to them without going insane, and my condition has been the same for the last few months and i haven't seen any deterioration at all, i simply can't just shut these feelings up.

Sorry for the long post, but i just have a lot to go through. anyway, do you guys have any advice for me? if it helps, i've been diagnosed with GAD and i'm almost fully recovered from depression and Panic Disorder and have been dealing with them for 3 years.

Thanks for your time...
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