You guys are such sweeties. Thank you so much for the.hugs and perty pictures and your kind words. It has been so long since anyone cared. You make me feel like a human being.

So I did it! Felt a panic attack at the first corner but ignored that impulse
to turn around and go home. And now I'm suckin on a Newport and got a can of Arizona.ice tea and two muffins. Heaven.They already fixed my heart--don't see why I can't smoke if I want to...
So I am committing to washing my hair/shower, a Mani pedi and putting all my clothes away. I'll do dishes and make a nice dinner, too.
Organic beans and rice with salsa and cheese and fried red peppers and onions.
And you will laugh but I do commercial dishes. Wash five at a time
during the commercials. I keep telling the cat to do them but he's lazier
than I am. Sorry--babbling--just feel so much better than I did a couple
of hours ago.

You all are the best.