(((hugs)))

Now I don't want to get you upset or anything, but can I point something out??? No matter how much you can rationalize it, comparing oneself to ANYONE and esp. a family member is fruit from a poisoned tree. Your brother can marry rich and be rich and thin and skinny and be the most wretched being in the universe...you have your art, you have a vision, you have the most horrible feelings, depression-wise...you have a muse and devil on your shoulders...i am sorry...sorry because i know how it feels...anyway, i know nothing i say will help when in a low spot...so I just put out there that you aren't alone and feel free to rant or chat with me or pm me if yu need to...I check almost daily but maybe not posting as much cause i am in a spot myself...huggles and snuggles and warm fuzzy feelings coming your way!!! melanie