Shazerac, I'd be willing to try. Sadly they are not on offer for complicated reasons that would drag this thread unhelpfully all over the map. But thanks for the thought.

magicalprince, thank you.

Item one is usually okay for me these days.

Item two is what I'm mostly thinking about. It's hard to stay focused on those mindfulness things when all my neurotic, hyper-vigilant and ruminating mind wants to do is fuss and gnaw at the details. But I'm glad you chimed in. That all sounds about right. I just wish I had more of a guide or support -- which brings me to ....

Thanks nextstep_butwhat. Yeah I truly wish I could find a therapist that was a good fit for me. I think that would really help with this and a few other things. My experiences with therapists have tragically ranged from ineffective to "sub-optimal" to quote another PC denizen.

I have a limited duration therapist at the moment, and honestly, so far it hasn't been great. But he's trying, and I'm trying. I'm hoping it will be adequate when I bring this up with him in detail. But I'd still be happy to hear any thoughts, methods or experiences from other people here on PC.