Thanks fuzzy

Answering your questions...something like that, I may say I am indifferent to life. It is hard to explain has it is hard, even for me, to understand. I have tried, I have come up with explanation, but somedays this emptiness of thoughts and feelings doesn't make sense. And it is so strange how things change so quickly. Just thinking about this right now is making me nervous.
And yes, people may try to be close to me, but they eventually have to quit and feel indifferent. And I may be indifferent about it...but also not.

Schizoids don't get this tired and light headed and dizzy with few stimulus and I am not psychotic for sure. And some days, and some hours I am less indifferent and more alive.
Everything is such a big mess.