Thank you, Graystreet. I think you have become enwisened by your experience. Just letting some time pass might be the best thing for now. I have to tell myself that I won't keep feeling this bad, as more time passes. Nothing ever seems so bad when you get the distance to look back at it.

I've always wanted to believe that my close family members - like siblings - are my best friends in the world. But they didn't volunteer for that. People can't choose their relatives, but they can choose their friends. I moved far away, so I'm not very much a part of their lives. I did the best I could to be that, but people drift apart. They don't mind, if months go by that we don't talk. Maybe I have to learn to not mind.