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Originally Posted by Shazerac
First of all I hear your pain. I’ve been there. 
Maybe you need to stop fighting and accept yourself as you are right now. “I’m acting like a self destructive mess.” You soul or spirit or whatever you believe is in there somewhere, hiding behind these behaviors. That voice is quiet and gentle and you can’t hear it right now.
Sometimes just a teeny tiny change in perspective can set us on a path to healing. Maybe you could try reframing your belief that you “are” a self destructive mess to you are “acting” like a self destructive mess. It’s not the real you. You feel pain and sadness right now. If you saw a friend feeling that way you would feel sad too. But hopefully you would love them anyway. Try to find a tiny spark of love for yourself.  |
Thank you for this. Really. I really struggle with loving myself, but you are right, somewhere deep down I am there. It’s a work in progress. Some days are easier than others, lately the difficult days seem to be outweighing the good.
For now I am on holiday with a friend for the next few days and I’m focussing on that
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Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go.
Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down.
Tired of wasting breath, tired of nothing left.
Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down.
Failure.
Failure - Breaking Benjamin