anxiety is high today. Not a full on panic attack, but high. I'm fighting it off, but I feel like a chicken with her head cut off. I always go to other people to like remind me to breathe. I need to talk to my therapist pronto about my issues of needing others and how to start doing this on my own. Or develop some signals for when I'm having an issue so my husband knows. Sadly, I'm always a little bit anxious, so he'll get easily frustrated with me if I do this too much. He doesn't know how much this sucks though!!

I see my therapist today. I am sneaking in one more session, at least, and this sneakiness is causing anxiety, but I'm feeling desperate.