[QUOTE=Vibrating Obsidian;6101820]If you want to help a stranger you don’t even know then go ahead
I will continue to seek support and encouragement instead of people who think against me

Shazerac - Speaking of past tense, why are you looking at things I said in the past?
I do know they are contradictive, but that’s exactly what happens when you stumble upon such personality. One of the relationship traits are they make it hard to forget about them

So if you really want me to move on from the past, then you need to look at what I say in the now and not what I said in the was
And I am not attempting to argue or decline advice. If you want to understand and help me then you have to listen to me

SadGirl - You have your right to think what I said seems disturbing to you, but it’s doing the opposite of helping and supporting me, because you’re literally supporting her when empathizing with her

No contact. If she is a “psychopath or narcissist”, she will reach out when you stop contacting. If you truly believe she is this way, do not engage.

If you haven’t, consider talking to someone about PTSD from your abusive childhood. I went through some similar thought patterns in my early relationships after childhood abuse. Being perfect, fixing everything, achieving a relationship to fill a hole and blaming others when everything consistently fell apart. There are no shortcuts, believe me I tried everyone. And killing yourself is not a solution. I promise if you start really caring for yourself and take your value back from others; you will look back on this someday and it will seem so miniscual. And the best part, you will have true happiness.

Good luck. Pulling for you.