Let me see...

You repeatedly "meditate" about her...

You claim to know things about her future/past via these "meditative sessions"....

You claim to know what she is thinking/feeling at times...

You also claim to know her intentions....

You claim you want to befriend her and constantly be close to her to help "resolve your crush on her" (which, is the exact opposite of what you should be doing, BTW).

I find these claims to be very disturbing and if I were in her shoes, and knew how much you are so unhealthily obsessed, I would very much want to call the police and have a restraining order placed on you.

I'm sorry this sounds harsh, but you need to face the facts, you have an unhealthy fixation, a downright obsession that will lead to stalking or worse if you don't get help soon.