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Originally Posted by ruby2011
I never stole, but I had been canned from Walmart for throwing an epic tantrum when I was 19 (ten years ago). The reason, my well-meaning coworker politely asked me why some stuff ain't put away the night before. I simmered, and simmered, and simmered until I exploded. I cursed her out, called her a stupid ***, and told her to go **** herself.
She reported me to management who let it slide w/ a warning. Two days later, someone brought up that girl's name and I purposely BANGED my HEAD into the fitting room pole in front of CUSTOMERS with children.
The backstory behind this was a girl at college hurt me like hell from DAY 1 and my fair weather friends walked out on me. Because of that girl, I lost every friend I've ever made and I made a lot. SO I started acting out everywhere else.
I may have since followed a similar pattern of acting out everywhere when I been hurt at work/school. However, I NEVER AGAIN acted out that severely as I did at Walmart cuz I learned my lesson.
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I can so relate to having so called "friends" turn around and betray you. I've had that happen so many times that I'd rather not think about it much. As a result, I'm naturally suspicious and wary of people and their intentions. I don't usually open up to just anyone anymore. That's not to say I'm not polite and cordial around people, I just don't consider them at all worthy of my innermost affections until they somehow prove themselves to me.
I also can relate to simmering until exploding. I think that learning some ways to express the anger and resentment instead of just bottling it up until you reach the boiling point can be very beneficial. One way I do it is through the values and teachings of Yoga. I go to a class taught by a neighbor in my neighborhood community center, and I have never felt more in control of my emotions. Sure, I have a lot of work to do yet, as I am not always in control, but I'm more in control than I was before taking the class.
I think that if you started doing yoga, even at home by yourself, you would find it amazing. The benefits are so numerous I can't even begin to describe them.
