I am so dreading your reaction when I see you on Tuesday. Will you be surprised? Suspicious? Make a joke? Or will you act like nothing has changed, like everything is normal?
I don't even know how I want you to react. I've rehearsed my responses to a thousand different scenarios in my head but I know I still won't be prepared for whatever you say.
It's been five months. What will be different? What will be the same?