if you know me then you either hate me or you love me. i can be obnoxious and annoying. i push people away, and i isolate myself. i bottle up my feelings and i guard my self against anyone who might intrude on me.

but im lost and im alone and im worried that i am punishing myself too much. worried that insanity will take over completely.

the time periods of feeling normal become shorter and shorter.... i am afraid i dont know who i am anymore. once the cycle is over i am back at the beginning... so far away from the world as i saw it only a week before.....

i feel as though i am getting sucked into a fog which is my mind.and i fear i may become stuck and unable to escape my self made prison.