I recently came back home after spending a couple of months on a psych ward.
This was the first time I got hospitalized and I got the help I needed. My meds are working and I'm not as deeply depressed as when I got in there.

But to be honest I'm scared. I'm scared that I will get that low again. Also I suffer from loneliness and I'm scared that the loneliness will make me deeply depressed.

This kinda makes no sense, I'm happy to be home again and I'm getting support, yet I'm scared. I'm scared even though I know I shouldn't be able to fall due to my medication that's working. Maybe it's a little bit hard because I spent several weeks in the hospital.
I would like to know how to make it easier to get used to "the real, everyday life" again.
And I wonder if there's a way to distract myself from loneliness and dark thoughts.

Sorry if I sound complicated, my thoughts are a mess and English isn't really my native language.