I am trying to see a therapist but I see bad signs after another, like burning charcoals I am not willing to tolerate
I am not ready for a relationship after what I’ve been through, despite how much I cherish them
Happiness no longer a goal. All I see of reality is suffering and destruction
To be happy means, “I will smile despite people wounding me”
I want to triumpth among that chaos, to destroy what destroys others

Thanks for the more tolerant response. You are right about therapy, but I am having difficulties finding one. I looked one after another and the signs are always there