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Originally Posted by Vibrating Obsidian
I am trying to see a therapist but I see bad signs after another, like burning charcoals I am not willing to tolerate
I am not ready for a relationship after what I’ve been through, despite how much I cherish them
Happiness no longer a goal. All I see of reality is suffering and destruction
To be happy means, “I will smile despite people wounding me”
I want to triumpth among that chaos, to destroy what destroys others
Thanks for the more tolerant response. You are right about therapy, but I am having difficulties finding one. I looked one after another and the signs are always there
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I'm glad you are looking for help. Keep looking and trying. Sometimes working with a T who doesn't feel like quite the best fit works well, because the reason you feel uncomfortable is because they push you out of your comfort zone.
I get the impression that you are really experiencing a sort of existential dilemma about the nature of happiness, etc. Let me say, while deep thought takes intelligence, it also promotes unhappiness, lol. You know they say ignorance is bliss.
So, forgive me this, but if you are intent upon employing these philosophical internal struggles in your everyday life, you will experience a lot of daily unhappiness. Have you done any reading on existentialism? The existential dilemma?
I'm not saying to give up on complex thought and philosophy, but maybe to accept too or learn how to live with the fact that this kind of introspection and contemplation lends itself to depression and unhappiness?