I actually seek to act as much as possible, like when I wanted to talk to my crush instead of holding it all inside. Wanted to sort a relationship out. A relationship, despite the complexity, I somewhat valued. Instead I got some advice against me like “you can’t make a person love you”. Shame on those who think I was “making” someone love me

The problem from my side however is I feared doing this because of how I was hurt in the past because of that relationship
I wanted to do it, I wanted to understand her. Even one therapist said we seem to have a pretty good relationship. One time I got a good gut feelings when near her, at times. Another time I felt attacked though, because of a mild ethnic clash.

So I am not obsessed. I hold a high value to a relationship by nature, that’s the way I am
Despite my ASD which can cause some “sign holes”, I can pick on many other signs if the crush is right