I have this deep-seated anger within and I am doing my best not to let it show, and to not act on it. I am wondering if it has anything to do with the young ego state that we talked about. I am wondering if I am angry because it makes me feel like I have no power. Like, I can't not feel angry even though I am sick of feeling this way. I don't want to feel powerless, but I do. I don't want to feel the need to post either, but I do. How in the world do I feel compassion for myself when my anger is so stark and intensified? Again, my brain tries to reason with myself, but I think my emotions are deaf. So, it is so disturbing to feel as if my intellect is trying to steer me in the right direction and my emotions abduct me and take over simultaneously. So, I am dealing with my intellect (the voice of reason), I am dealing with a young, needy part, and I am dealing with the awareness that I should be able to convince my whole self that my intellect is trying to steer me right, while I am also dealing with painful affect including anger. I can't even explain it, it is so difficult to put into words. My anger isn't helping me at all And there's nothing I can do about it, that I know of. I know I will make it through this, but I am looking for the perfect words to convey how I feel and have yet to find them.